Look up “indecisive” in the dictionary and you will find my picture.
I’m at a cross road in my life. Things have never been so uncertain and the lack of certainty is causing a fear of commitment. I can’t seem to make a decision about anything…big or small. Everything from what internship to take to what I should eat for dinner causes a ridiculous amount of anxiety and apathy. Sometimes I don’t know whether I am coming or going. I realize that people would kill to have my “problems”, but just let me have my time to sulk. Here are a few of my many decisions:
• My hard drive crashed a few weeks ago and I lost everything. I sent the hard drive off to a data recovery service to see if they could retrieve any of the data. It turns out they can, but at the hefty price of $1500. Are the lost files worth $1500?
• Internship…my head hurts from the thought of making a decision…long story short: Where should I spend my all important summer slaving away? I need more time to be indecisive. More details to come.
• I need to figure out what to do over Spring Break. There is a Career View program that allows students to apply for a one-week “shadowing/internship” with an alum. The submissions range from traditional consulting and marketing jobs to non-profit and entrepreneurship. I’m thinking about applying for a non-profit position. I figure this will give me a chance to see if I really like this area without committing to an entire summer in non-profit. There is also a service trip to Brazil that would be interesting. And of course, the option most people choose…go on a trip. It sounds like our class is planning a trip to either Mexico or Dominican Republic. Do I apply for the Career View program, go on the Service trip to Brazil, or take a vacation?